wow, how long has it been?

I'm sorry for all the people that have looked at my site and have noticed no blogs and nothing new. Well you can say i just needed to take a break from blogging. You know there are some things that you just can't share and wish you could but in fear of certain people reading my blog. So needless to say it makes it a impossiblity to share some of the frustrations, excitements, and/or hurts. Just a question to ponder on... Have you ever actually loved someone and they knew that you loved them but they are taken by another person who, I, honestly think they don't love? Kind of a bold statement but in the hearts of hearts that's what i believe. Does it hurt me? yes, very much so. Will I say anything to this person? I don't know... I am torn in many directions and honestly don't know what to do. I can go to her and tell her that i would offer her, protection, stability, comfort, and some of the things i already do. I am a friend to her. I actually consider her one of my best girlfriends. She reads me like a book, and i can't hide things from her. She see right through me and catchs all the jokes. She brings a smile to my face just by seeing her from across the room. Inside jokes are endless, laughter never ends and looks that need no words to crack me up. Sounds like a romantic movie plot but that is where i stand at the moment. Torn, broken, in many directions.