Uncertainties

Well... i know it's been a long time since i've written here. I'm not dead yet... haha. Still alive and kicking. Just been super busy with work. I finally finished my building project that pleagued me for a long time now. Frustration after frustration. Not to mention one of my closest friends tring to stab me in the back. I had to hear it through the grape vine. Really ticked me off that he went behind my back and didn't have the guts to approach me and talk to me about it. I think that bothered me more then what he was doing. Anyways, now i'm at a cross road... I feel like this point in my life is at a critical point. The deciscion i make right now is going to forum the rest of my life. I guess that is why my deciscion is sooo hard. All the "what if's", which way should i choose? which one will be the most benificial to me. Something inside of me tells me it doesn't matter, whatever i pick God will bless it. But why is it still so difficult? Well that's where i've been in my life, kind of a load on those that have been reading my blog for some time but i'm sure you guys understand.